The suicide could have been prevented , I keep thinking sometimes . My uncle committed suicide last year , probably you too might have lost someone to suicide.
Do you feel the suicide could have been prevented ???
The basic question –
Why does someone embrace death when life is so beautiful???
Beacuse they do not find that beauty . They have no hope. They feel no one is by their side. Beacuse we being there loved one fail to show them , that beauty . A person who commits suicide dies by the heart first . I personally feel suicide is a long procedure , it’s not a last moment decision .
When a person tries to escape the suffering having no hope, fearful of life ,embrace death fearlessly.
We often take emotional imbalance lightly giving too much importance to the human race, to the expectations of society . We need to tell a person , who’s loosing hope that –
When alive there are endless possibilities to start afresh but death ends every possibility.
Just quit on society , what matters is you and we love you – is something can prevent a thought of suicide , I feel.
We try to understand people the way we see life , the way we face it , the way we experience it. To understand someone we need to see life with their perspective, with consideration of their experiences and their sufferings. That little understanding can give someone a hope . A little time , taken for them can give the warmth they need , the importance they want .
And trust me , we all humans are same . Not bread and butter but we crave for love and warmth. We might be busy trying hard to compete in the race to reach the highs and reserving the attention our loved ones need for future , which is uncertain. May be in future we will reach the highs, and have time but not our loved ones .
Life is meant to be balanced.
Message to everyone –
Quit on suffering and not on life.
Death is an end, life is an opportunity .
It was a one day trip in Melghat . This place is not new to me . I have been travelling on these roads since my childhood . But this time I went there after a long gap of 3 years . This is a forest area . When it’s about forest all we could imagine is greenery everywhere . But to my disappointment half of the forest missing its greenery . It’s June end still there is no rain in that area . All I could see are thirsty trees waiting for the rain .
Everybody wants to travel on the road going through green forest . Everybody loves the roads covered by beautiful green trees on it’s both side . No one wants to travel on the roads watching deadly trees .
Somehow I could relate life with these trees . They are all thirsty , still standing strong. Trees are not meant to be green all the time. They have seasons , they have phases just like life. Same like that , We are not supposed to have happy seasons all the time . We are supposed to go through rough phases and come strong through all of them with lessons . Only those who have strong roots can stand waiting for the rain . Soon it will rain and deadly trees will turn green . Nothing lasts forever. Keep on hoping , keep on rooting .
” Season Will Change ,
Life Will Make You Grow ,
Everything Is Temporary ,
Everything Will Slide .”
I would love to spell some of the childhood memories with my sister .
She is almost 5 years younger than I am . I have literally pampered her, like a baby , from making her laugh when she used to cry , to making her sleep by singing lullabies which were exclusively made by me , I have done it all . Our mummy still laughs remembering how broken lullabies I used to make and sing to entertain my little one .
She used to beat me up and I had never given it back to her as she was younger . She would come from back and punch me and then run crying loudly so that our parents could hear her and yell at me . Then she would laugh at me and I would pass the glare at her exactly like this emoji 👉😒👈 . Now we laugh remembering all this . Whenever we used to eat cream biscuits , she would lick the cream leaving only biscuit for me . Whenever someone used to ask her favourite food or her favourite colour she would come to me and ask my choices and then she would answer, yes yes I like the same . If I had fever then she would do drama saying I have fever too . She always wanted the same things I liked even though we had different tastes . Even today if she is going somewhere she asks me for my opinion about what to wear . She would argue for an hour how she doesn’t want to wear it , but at the end she would go with my choice only . For my primary education I was at my maternal grandparents’ place . So whenever my parents used to visit , I would be waiting on the way of my grandparents’ house . And the moment I saw my sister coming I would go and lift her in my arms . Lifting her up in my arms was like an achievement to me – she was a healthy child and I was totally opposite , tall and super thin . During our childhood I was so happy because she used to hate chocolates and mangoes . Now she loves them to my disappointment . She is an angry bird . She would drop anything in anger like if I make her angry while eating she would not eat just because I tease her , so I started taking advantage of this . Whenever she would eat chocolates , I would do something to annoy her so that I could have it . Initially it was so effective , but then she understood my tactics . We are totally opposite to each other . She is always in serious mood acting all sophisticated and I am always doing silly things to annoy her . We say sarcastically that we even have opposite blood group , she is ( A+ ) and I am ( A- ) . I love playing with kids which she hates . She hates how they make noise while playing . I gang up with all kids and we deliberately make noise to annoy her . It’s so easy to annoy her . She has a bad habit of nail biting . Already her nails are small and short , so to tease her I deliberately put my fingers near her fingers to show off my nails . She never needs a nail cutter to cut her nails as they never grow . She is going to kill me for mentioning her precious nails . I have long hair than her so I flaunt them exactly in front of her face . When she is getting ready I would go and stand next to her showing off them and she gives me an angry look without saying a word and we laugh . I never let go a single chance to annoy and embarrass her .
But best thing is she loves cooking and I love eating this is the only reason I feel blessed sometimes 😜 .
We fight alot to the extend our mummy says there are no siblings like us who fight like this . But we love each other with the same intensity . We do fight alot but we don’t spare anyone if someone tries to hurt any of us . Our world revolves around each other .
While growing up , we see our parents worrying about us when we travel or come late and we often feel there is no reason to get so worried and restricting on times . To be honest I also do this to her . Having a younger siblings makes you understand your parents’ position .
It’s her birthday today and I have a message for her –
I want you to live your life to the fullest . You need to love yourself and need to learn how to find your happiness no matter what life shows you . Do whatever makes you happy , I am always gonna be there to pick you up if you fall down . And remember we picked you from jungle that is why we don’t have alot of pictures of your childhood . I could not mention some of the memories , sorry to disappoint you 😜 .
I love u 😘
Happy Birthday ❤🎊🎉🎈🎂 .
P. S. She no more dares to beat me up because , now I make sure she would get it back😜 .
As I mentioned in previous blog I wasn’t a kid who steps outside alot . And was only comfortable around my mother . So I never shared anything with anyone even when I was sad and hurt . But when we store everything in the heart , it weighs alot , it feels so heavy . It was back then in 2009 ,when I was in 9th standard our English teacher used to give topics to write down our openions . And more than writing them for marks or in perspective of exams I was more inclined to pour my heart . I found peace in writing down whatever I felt . So it started during that period , I would write whatever I feel like . And I would feel free and comfortable as there was not fear of judgements . I was so unable to put all words together to express myself . So even if I try to pour my heart , it was hard to convey someone what exactly I feel like . But writing them all gave a way out to my thoughts . I knew that piece of paper was not going to judge me or laugh at me if I couldn’t express properly . It became my comfort zone . I could analyze myself after writing . It not only helped me to improve my way of expression but also gave my thoughts clarity . Writing down my thoughts was like watching myself in the mirror . It helped me to find a friend in myself . There was rarely a book during my college days where the last pages left empty . I would write whatever and where ever in my notebook . Fortunately , teachers never checked my notebook 🙈 and I was not so bright that someone could borrow my books 😀 , they were always incomplete anyways 🙈 . Sometimes I used to write with pencil so that I could erase it all 😃 .
Last year in September , I wrote first time openly on WordPress . For me , writing never meant to teach someone a lesson of life , of course I can’t , I am still a student in the school of life . It also never meant to prove something right or wrong , or even I can’t inspire someone as I have not achieved anything yet . For me writing is a space of my own , the world of my words . It is a way for me to learn , to grow , to improve . Now I have some great people around me , I can share anything and everything with them still writing never left my hand 😃 .
Writing does not need great philosophy, correct Grammer, vast vocab . It only needs right emotions and willingness to express them all .
I really suggest you should try writing down whenever feel stucked and see how it helps.
Writing is the best way to find a friend within urself….♥ ♥
We know the experiment of needle magnet . If we hold the needle tightly in hand then it won’t show any direction . It shows direction when we hang it freely . That is how life is !!
I realized I hold things too tightly I never set myself free to experience new things . There were always rules and regulations which acted as an imaginary wall of limitations . And I never went against that wall . It was always like – things has to go in certain way and has to be done within certain limits and if not then I used to be anxious . Now I am breaking that wall .
In the past one year my perspective for life has changed in many ways . Now , I am more sort of a person who is willing to discover new things about myself . My curiosity has been on high point . I so wanna do something different everytime . Making mistake is no more a regret for me rather I am excited to learn from them . I feel more lively , more comfortable and more at peace . No more conflicts between heart and mind , now both works in coordination 😃 , may be because of the acceptance of uncertainty caused by the decisions . I keep trying to make life better . Truely said that your thinking and approach moulds your life . Let’s not go on the deep philosophy of law of attraction . But it is a fact that we become what we think , it is just a matter of time . I spend more time on discovering new list of to do things and new hobbies to add in my list . Thinking about all this , I understood , nothing has changed – The people around me , the place I live in , the society I have been part of , the only thing that has changed is my approach towards my life .
I did not know how to express the restless feeling born through impulsive curiosity for life . I was trying to figure out what exactly I want from my life and still I am . But I understood one thing for sure now , what I want are experiences . I want stories to share .
Each day I feel like there are so many things I have not done yet , there is so much to try . Experiences is a new found love for me . I don’t want to stop but go with the flow like the flowing river .
That’s my story of discovering life , what is yours ???
When was the last time you thought about where you want to be and what you want in your life ???
Since our childhood ,We are taught not to make mistakes rather than moving on with lessons. . . We are taught to be perfect rather than accepting imperfection . . . We are taught to hold on rather than letting go . . .
As a result most of us never learn the facts –
A mistake is not the end of everything and perfection is a myth . It is okay to make mistakes , this is the way one grows . Every mistake , every losses can empower you , you just need to know how to use the opportunity created by those losses . Making mistake and accepting it , is not cowardy but holding on it , is . You really don’t need to hold on things which bring stress rather than happiness in your life . Let it go when holding on only means making society happy . At the end all we do is for living happy life ♥ .
There is no perfect definition for being strong or being weak . Being strong does not mean u should not cry and lock your emotions into the heart . It also does not mean ,you should bear the burden of heavy stress and still should not rely on anyone . Being strong does not mean u don’t need to be loved and live lonely life . Then what is it to be strong???
Being strong means finding your worth in every dark shade life shows u . Being strong means getting up and gathering broken pieces of your soul and still having faith in life once again positively , no matter how many times life tries to break u . It takes courage to show your emotions and weakest side to someone. But after showing that broken side of yours if someone doesn’t understand the gravity of the situations u go through then not loosing hope in the goodness , is being strong . Being strong means acknowledging Your own mistakes . Being strong means having big dreams no matter how much anyone else mocks you for your dream . For me the strongest persons are someone who wear their heart on sleeves , beacuse it takes courage to show emotion without being afraid of betrayal.
Mothers need to be celebrated . Mother is the only person who can sacrifice everything for her family . She adjusts her likes and dislikes according to family , no matter how much her child hurts her she will always be there . Everyday is a Mother’s Day but taking out a day to celebrate is not a bad idea .
So today I would write about my mother…
She is extremely close to me . She is very kind , sensitive and friendly . While growing up , I would rather play at home with her than going out . Due to his job , my father could not be home always . So it was just three of us – my mother , sister and I most of the time . There was also a time when a thief entered from back door or there was a snake in front of the door but the courage my mother showed everytime to handle the situation is incredible . She is the strongest woman I ever came across .
So many people ask me if i don’t get bored staying all day home .When I have my mother around me it is always a fun day . Hats off to her capacity , she works all alone whole long day . She is inspiring . She is a homemaker but she taught me how a woman should be independent financialy . She is damn creative . My creative side comes from her . She says u should never say that I can not do something . U should try and give ur best . Her never dying enthusiasm is something rare to find at her age . She is always ready to learn new things . She taught me that u are never too old to learn and to celebrate life . I am so grateful for everything , words are not enough to put all my emotions together . Women are stronger and mother is the strongest.
#mother #bestfriend #loveher♥
I was never a carefree person since my childhood . I would cry on small things . And the only person I was comfortable with was my mother . I had no friends after 4 th standard to be comfortable with . I always wanted to run from the school and wanted to stay at home because I had no friends . I could not match the frequency with my classmates . I had none to have fun , to share things . I was always unable to spell my emotions . I used to doubt my every action , every emotion . Though I knew I was not wrong , I was lonely . Watching everyone having friends to share and care , I used to envy them . I had no confidence in myself . But then I came across a person who became my first best friend . Who made me believe in myself. Who made me smile when I was down , who told me I am the most genuine person , who would listen to all my complaints without judgements , who was there for me at the lowest points . That best friend of mine has transformed me into a confident person . I am so much thankful to god for gifting me with such a friendship . Now I believe we just need to have patience , god always has something for us . I no more have complaints that I was lonely in my school days . I am rather happy thinking , may be it was a sacrifice needed to earn this precious friendship . Now I express myself so easily without doubting myself , unlike before when I was unable to understand my own emotions . All credit goes to my best friend. I feel everyone should get a friend like that once in a life .
That’s the story of my first best friend 😊♥ ….